Saturday, July 16, 2011

Life's Choices

"It's not my life! I am living somebody Else's life!"
What this line suggests you? What I will be writing around such a line?
1) Some fiction story with memory loss...
2) Fiction about death of a person giving responsibilities of life to someone causing drastic change in his life....
3) Some kind of a science fiction using non-existent weired ideas of many dimensions....
4) Some magic or fairy story of the different world containing all different species like vampires, wizards, ghosts, goblins, dragons etc...
5) I can even write a non fiction giving ideas about managing your life successfully by using this Mantra!
6) This will be very ideal opening line for a spiritual book as well...
But NO! I am not going to write anything like that. Not at least now in this post. (As all ideas are stored in my brain, I can't guaranty about the next post anyway!)
Today I am going to write about some simple facts that I learned about life.
You get the life you deserve. There is no such thing as somebody else's life. Life gives you all the choices to make from time to time. You yourself choose the alternative as per your thinking and your nature. So... The life you get is of your choice and your making!
The situation sometimes compels you to make certain choices which could be seen as fate. But the chances life gives you are designed such that it will give you what you lack in yourself. It will teach you , enrich you with experiences and develop your personality. If you have decided on some path to take in your life and some how you chose the totally different /opposite path, it means you are attracted more towards the life on the other side of the road. You need to get those experiences to enrich your life to the other higher stage of life. All kinds of experiences are necessary in your life.
Yes , I was thinking about my life as somebody else's life. Even now sometimes I feel that this is not my life! But next moment shows me how all the experiences in this life which I chose for myself without planning and knowing why I chose it ; gave me... All the dimensions it had added to my life which I had never thought before that they existed in world...And I will surely give up the life I was thinking I would lead someday! My one lifespan is very short to absorb all those things life is offering me....teaching me! Is this the 'KARMA YOGA' of my own I am experiencing? Or is it the fate I am accepting without complaint and with logic of my own?
Many times I ask question that why was I compelled to make a particular choice and not any other to fate. But I should not be asking this question to the fate,because fate will not answer to me. But if I aks this question to myself then I will get many asnwers to this question which will satisfy my quest.
I am not satisfied with my life yet. I still have some paths I want to take which I don't know if my choices will permit me or not. I might not be satisfied with the life I got with my choices but I am trying to get all I could from them. I know some times I could have made a mistake in making choices but that is what I could have chewed at the time... Other choice could have been something I couldn't have handled and that is what really matters.
Yes...I am happy with my life and my choices as they are now! Aren't you?

Monday, April 25, 2011

The Railway station

After a very very long time she had come to this place. She never thought she was so closely related to this place. Yesterday when she was cleaning her closet she found the photograph of this place taken long back. Then she couldn't stop herself visiting this place. The longing was so strong!
'The Railway station'! How this place had become so important to her? Not only important, it had a mysterious outline to it in her memories. Many memories were such when she was not travelling by the train but just had come there to visit someone. She had discovered someone who had found the privacy in the crowd of this station. She was totally stumped by the idea when she first heard of it. But now she could see so many aspects she hadn't seen that time to this idea!
She had done something that day, that was totally out of character, when she had gathered the courage to tell him that she loved him! The totally unconditional love. He had reciprocated the emotion and had taken her to the station. The place where he used to go often to fulfill his passion of looking at passing by trains and the place where you would be alone with so many people passing by without giving you any thought or the second look! That day here at this place she had found totally new world of experiences and the totally different perspective to look at the life!
At this station she had learned to be anonymous. Making herself sparse when she was not included in the talk. On this station she had seen her Idol getting on the train and going away like totally different person, leaving her alone to think about the life and her idealism in different light!
The station has changed so much but it still had it's original aura of fullness and satisfaction. This place just represented her life. All hustle and bustle of catching some fast trains. Some slow movements to be on the train in general and sometimes just holding the ground to let some trains pass by without any interruptions. So many emotions to be confronted by each passing passenger.
Yes she loved this place. She had visited so many stations in her life. Each had a different memory attached to it. But this station had a really very special place in her heart and life!

Monday, April 18, 2011

The Mirror


I am writing this post after a long time. I have changed the picture on my profile as well... Want to know WHY? Then you have to be patient and read on... I can give any no. of excuses for not writing so long. But the real reason was I needed time. I needed to think badly about my writing and what I really wanted to do with my blog! When I started blogging I was thrilled. I learned and experienced so many things in such a short period of time. I started writing in new formats like 55 fiction, tags etc. I started to write witty remarks and made so many friends! But somehow in the process I lost myself! Blogging is very addictive. You have to write everyday. The pressure of writing, to be read and to get lots of comments is tremendous. Yet you have to write creatively. You have to produce new ideas and most of all you have to satisfy yourself with it! Which I lost completely. I was really very unhappy with my writing. It didn't feel like my passion to me anymore. So I stopped writing a Blog. Today I changed the picture to a mirror. I feel my writing is like mirror to me.
It shows me my real image. Sometimes ugly...
sometimes beautiful
sometimes even illusive or misguided.....
but still it is me! Different, expansive virtual me!
So now I am going to write this blog with different perspective and with more knowledgeable; mature mind! It is going to be my mirror as I like it to be. I hope you will enjoy it as much as I!